These last two weeks have been, in lack of better words, exigeting, tumbeling, remarkeble, and in so many ways, life changing for me. Lately its been somewhat of a theme in my life that everything seem to happen at the same time when it finally do, this could not be more true in light of the last months record.

Its been a litle to much and still present for me to make proper acount for, but I dear say that its been in the very least positive experienses.

I guess you can never gain something, without offering something of equal value, this beeing handed down by some of the principles of alchemy and ofc by the popular (and lovely) Full Metall Alchemist anime for an example.
Given the change I always doubt, beeing afraid of failing the task, sacrefice something for nothing. Never realy taken my changes with it, untill recently.

Sad to say it cost me dearly in a way, and I will take responsebilety for that cost.

But I am amaced with the result, the conclution given to me by in exchange for that cost.. Is more then I ever could have hoped for in my life time.

All human (or alike) life is based around the power of choise in a way, making a difference to whats around you in selecting goals and means to get to thouse. Sadly, some paths end dead on, and the goal becomes un-obtainable. But sometime you can find your way stray from the path, only to, many years later, reconnect with it further on the path then you had thought ever possible to make it. The goal can't be an object or material thing such a person, not when you set out on the path at least. The notion of the specific details of the goal gets stronger the further on the path as you stride.

This, I assume, is what is called personal evolution, that you, with preserverence strive to be a better person, or become, to reach that goal some day.

And I think, that I gotten a little further on the road now, and can feel that goal closer then before. I know now that I can not get further by "playing safe" and I intend to stop at nothing to reach that goal of mine.

I know you are standing at the end of that path my dear, the wind brought your kiss to my lipps the day I first opened my eyes. I have your hand in mine, and it warms my heart.

Years may pass, seasons may change, all to whilstfully they seem, compared to what I allways feel for you.